Alright..

So I realize that it has been a while since I was last on here, but there is this guy, yes a new guy, that I like. But I guess he really doesn't like me too much anymore. I swear though, sometimes it seems like he does, but other times it doesn't. WHAT THE FUCK. And also he says these kind of things like, every girl is going to cheat or hurt me. And I don't understand. I haven't done a single thing to him, I've been nice, sweet, and everything. I don't understand. I feel like I was seriously lead on. He has been posting all these B.S. posts on facebook saying that when he finds the right girl that he is going to treat her right and never hurt her. Well this is the reason why I know HE DOESN'T like me. I fucking give up. I don't know what to do anymore. I really do like the dude, and to be honest, I lost my virginity to him. I personally think that he doesn't even give a damn about me. I have been hurt several times in the past and he acts like he's the only one. I tell him I think he's cute but he doesn't believe me.

I was supposed to go to his house on Thursday but my mom was sick so she couldn't take me, then I asked if I could come over Friday, but he spent time with his family. So I asked about Saturday, and he said yes to that. BUT he's saying now that he has to check in the damn morning, WTF is that supposed to mean? Do you want me there or not?!

I GIVE UP. I need to find a guy that'll treat me right, like me for who I am, someone that will be proud to call me his girlfriend. Someone who will hold my hand and kiss me in front of anyone. Someone who will wipe my tears away and tell me everything will be okay. Someone who will cuddle with me during a movie and stare at the starry night sky.